Thursday, August 20, 2009

Hates to Stay Back

Nothing to post these days. All those happy moments are erased when I reached home. My mum is really troubled and worried about my grandpa. I couldn't really smile a second at home. Life is getting weird. The atmosphere is just not the same. Everybody is not speaking and I just stay in my room and do homework or listen to music.

I wonder when Grandpa will come home. Dad said he will stay for at least a week in the hospital. Sigh. One day is enough for me and it's going to be a week. I'm dying... Sitting alone in my room doing Math is something I never did before. It's just so boring. Moreover, I can't think. I don't even know how to find HCF and LCM. Man what am I doing?!

Aww... Nerdi is currently occupying my free time these few days. I will guess what he is doing when I feel bored with my homework. : ] And I'm glad he's more hardworking now. Okay don't want to talk more about him now.

Saw Mandy and Yee Yong on the way home today. Mandy looked the same, cute and white while Yee Yong changed a lot. Mainly his voice. It was so low. Hmm... :\

Nothing to talk about. Just pray that Grandpa will be fine after one week. This week is really crucial. Yup. : ) Noooo I don't want to stay back for CCA!!! Lin Lao Shi is not coming this week and life's going be to bored AGAIN!!! *Screams*

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

SMILE BABE

I MUST SMILE!!!

NO RONG you mustn't cry!!!

SMILE RONG RONG, SMILE!

Hahas I still remember I'm PMRR.

PM doesn't cry yea? Cheer up babe!

Remember what a dramatic movement you did today!

'Oh man, that was FORFEIT!'

Think of Nerdi's smile!

Recall? Yup! ^ ^

Sigh...

I don't know if I'm going to school tomorrow or not. Too much things are starting to stream in and I can't take it at once. I enjoyed school today. But when I reached home, things started to happen... Man.

My mum told me my grandpa fell down this morning and he can't move his limbs now. She couldn't take him to the clinic but she called my dad. Yea. But my dad had lessons till 7pm. Sigh I could not dare to utter a word then. The only thing I did was to stare the sky and sigh.

Just now, my mum called. She was crying again, saying that they were rushing to the Changi Hospital. The doctor expected him to be hospitalised. Sigh. What must there be such things happening in my life!? He was having the same experience as my grandma. No no... I don't want it to happen. NO.

Seriously I can't do anything now. All I can do is cry... I'm just so useless. I'm just a weakling. I SUCK. Hate myself.

Saw the picture on Nerdi's facebook. It just added another burden on me. I can't take it anymore. No more... I'm giving up. It has to end somewhere. And now it's the time.

I thought today would be the happiest day of my life but somehow one of the saddest. Fine.