Happy Happy and HAPPY!

I am feeling very happy today! So different from yesterday! I am going to my cousin's house tonight~ AGAIN?! She is celebrating Valentines' Day + Her Hubby's birthday + Her New House's birthday. My family's invited and we will be setting off at about 4pm+ later. :D

So happy that Benedict tagged! I didn't expect someone I am not so familiar with came tagging at my 'nobody-wants-to-come' blog. Lols! And Sing Chien~ my supporter tagged too! :D Can see his tag almost everyday. Yap! He's one of those who keep my blog 'alive' with tags! Claps claps! My Nerdi's birthday is just next Saturday! Everybody must sing him a birthday song!~

Happy Valentines' Day to everyone!

*My rose and Yingna's*

Haiz, why am I so depressed?

Can you feel it?... Sigh... The pain inside my heart is unbearable.

I can't forget the painful moment. Haiz...

The sun is shining brightly now. Ying Na and Zhi Jia, those St Johns people are busy marching in the parade square right now. Eunice and See Onn are happily playing their instruments in band. Wen Qi and Annabella are sadly playing Yang Qin and Gu Zheng in the CO Room now. Ji Ba and my Dad are enjoying their time in the parade square in NCC. 4 Chun is enjoying in Scouts...

Everyone is staying back for CCA today. As I was walking home today, I listened to music with the loudest volume my Realplayer can have. It was so loud that my ears were going to burst but somehow I felt much better after listening to some pop music. Though my heart was still aching now...

I really feel sad today. Don't know why. It's not because of Nerdi getting the rose. It's something that I don't know... I don't know why I'm feeling this way... Just feeling extraordinarily upset. *Looking out of the windows again* The sun is still shining brightly. And I can hear the cicadas...

I think I should forget everything right now and give myself a few minutes or even hours time to think carefully my choice. Or maybe I will go down to the park near my house and breathe some fresh air to help me think better. I must must must think carefully and for a longer time. Must really think again and again. Sigh...

To Wen Qi: No matter how he feels towards you, don't be upset okay? He isn't the only man in the world. There're still other better boys in AHS and since he doesn't treasure you, forget him. Don't waste time on him and use the time looking at him to study. Show him that you're better than THAT girl. Okay? :) Cheer up

The 14th's Song

Listening to The 14th's Song on my blog... And feeling really sad at the same time...

I am feeling sad for Nerdi...


Sigh... Mmmm... He was sitting on the stairs today, alone. It seemed like he was thinking of something. But the problem is, he's feeling sad. And I just stood there for a few seconds staring at him while he thinks. The feeling was... so sad yet so awkward. What does he got to do with me?

I remembered a lot of things during the orientation. Serene screamed at him, telling him to shut up. Although he was saying something that was caring to all of us... He was asking us if we could hear what the counsillors were trying to say... But then... Serene just screamed at him,"Nerdi, shut up!"

I could vividly remembered his expression when he wiped his face with his left hand when he heard that... I could feel that tears that was rushing out of his eyes... He was just doing something that could help the group, but...

He wrote at his blog that he was feeling really helpless and lonely, in one of his posts... He was really stressed to have tests almost everyday and CCA plus the projects. And a lot a lot of things... Though people say that he is not a good person, but I feel that he is just like the less naughty version of my 02. Whom I really want to care for but can't... I can't do anything about it.


When he's lonely, I can only stare at him from afar. Even if I feel like flying over and sit by his side, I can't. I can only look at him walking sadly away to his classroom, and away from me.
When he feels upset, I can't go over and comfort him. I can only speak softly to myself that he'll be okay. When he feels happy, I can't share the joy with him. But can only pray that the happy moment will last longer so he can smile longer. The feeling I had for 02 was the same as how I felt for Nerdi... haiz