Feeling sad. Extremely sad. The feeling is worse than finding Nerdi has 100 ex-girlfriends. OMG. Do you how it feels like? Just that you can't cheer up and nothing can make you smile when you think of it.

I am obsessed with Yamapi and Ikuta Toma(Nakatsu) these few days. (Actually I am obsessed with Toma for quite a while already) I searched a lot of informations on Yamapi yesterday... And saw some photos he took with one caucasion. T.T There were 3 of them. They broke my heart.

After that I searched videos on Ikuta Toma, thinking that he's pure and would never take that kind of photos. Most importantly, he is kawaii and will definitely cheer me up. Who knows, I found a fan-made video on... Sigh. Nakatsu, even Nakatsu did this kind of thing! I can't stand it. I am just too disappointed.

However, I must understand that they are actors, they are celebrities. THEY ARE STARS. Some of the things they are doing aren't the things they really want to do. They are just going according to what the director wants. Most of all, you can never understand them and know the other side of them.

Conclusion: I'm sad.

有的时候，我会觉得自己了解他人太深，知道关于那个人也太多，渐渐地就会对他的性格，喜好和他的缺点、优点了如指掌。知道太多他的缺点会让你对他感到厌倦。还没认识之前可能会觉得这个人不错。可是慢慢的你更认识他了，就会知道更多。。。

早知道就不该知道更多关于那个人的事了，现在知道了只是我自己不开心而已。说实在的，又何必呢？那件事总是在我的脑海里打转。我要疯了。

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