Now I'm super irritated by the Ebuddy Messenger. Fail like s**t because I closed all chats and all the history gone. But it wasn't as annoying as last time when the messages inside my Sony Ericsson phone got deleted. Luckily don't have important or memorable stuff if not I will anyhow scold people again.

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Just now when I walked into my room to get a hanger for Mom, I realised I forgot to cover my GZ after playing. THEN I REALISED IT IS GORGEOUS OMG. If I can ever afford a super advanced GZ like the one ShaoTian got... I WILL BE SO HAPPY. His totally wasted because it's collecting dust in his living room.

Okay let's see. If I am rich enough in future... I will either make my house super western or super Chinese. I wanna have a small room that I put the instruments I learn, the music books and collections of rare scores. :] So awesome right! I wanna have a Billy bookcase that stretches acrossssssssss my living room and it is so high that it reaches the ceiling. It will be painted WHITE. I want to have a small corner (or maybe a garden?) for plants and water. But I will not keep fish cuz I don't know to raise them well.

I must earn enough money to let Daddy and Mommy go tour around the world. Before I can go Korea, I must earn enough money OMG. OH YEA! I must have one corner for car models and remote toys! Then must have collection of TRANSFORMERS too! AH AH! And collection of wrapping paper! HAHA. :] Then must have one room of Daddy's art pieces. NO! His art pieces will be displayed in my living room and his room with Mom!

YEA OH YEA! I want my study room's bookcase to be those in Chinese drama. Very hard to find I know. :] It's like antique!? Then must set aside one part of table to let me practise calligraphy. I really wanna learn calligraphy from Dad if I have the chance! It just reminds me of how stupid and un-talented that I am that I can't inherit his art genes. :'(

Okay that's future, let's think about what to do NOW.

P1-P2: Alicia left me with another girl I forgot her name at the end of P2.

P3: Great life with Clarissa.

P4: YuLin angry with me for being with Karm.

P5: Karm angry with me for being with Nung.

P6: Nung angry with me for being with... Gajing or Ashley?

The history of my broken friendship.

I'm sorry girls. I admit I'm not a good friend. I know I ignore people's fee-ling so much that they just leave me one by one. People come, people go. It's fate that let us meet. Let's treasure the chance that fate gave us..

GaGa was always with me when I was P6.. I remember her apologising to Karm immediately when she found out that Karm was angry with her. I asked her why, as in she didn't even know what's happening! She told me "自尊算什么? If apologising can bring my friend back to me, why not?" I never, yes I NEVER tried to apologise to friends even when I know I'm in the wrong. Maybe that's because of my horoscope? That I'm stubborn and unwillingly to give in even if I know I'm wrong.

As I grow, I slowly learn that Ga is right. 为了朋友, your pride shouldn't be the priority. If you're wrong, DUH OF COURSE APOLOGISE. Even if not, you HAVE to try to speak to your friend and find out why he/she is angry. Because people won't be angry for no reason what. It must be something that you've done wrongly that causes that tension.

Okay I realised I really really have to balance out between friends. I really have to prioritize. And I'm really sorry GoldGold, for making you feel that way today. I don't know if everything will go back to normal but really, I do treasure you. A lot. :(

This version of TikTok is awesome GO JESSICA and KRYSTAL!

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Oh miiaan I think I'm falling sick again. Argh. It seems like I will 900% catch a cold if it rains at night and that idiot rain lasts till the next morning.. Then it will turn into fever and cough. Ah no! My long weekend.. T T Actually I sort of sensed it this morning cuz I was trembling even with all the windows closed. Then still wore slippers to school and people say your feet can cause illness if you don't protect them well.. WAH like that la.

Gonna sleep now even though it's.. OMG 12.46am already. Nights world.

PS. Suddenly thought of Mom's epic way of waking me up - anyhow play the Guzheng until you 忍无可忍 have to wake up to stop her.. OMG got one flying ant in my room and now I feel the headache coming. Sian!

Wanted to type something but just kept deleting. Might as well don't post.

Imagine crying with Kesha's TikTok on. Idiot. It just doesn't make sense. I think I will just have to throw my lunch away. I can see, I can hear and I know what you're doing. Although I may not be old enough to decipher what you're up to, at least I understand you're doing something that harms.

You know something, you all NEVER bother to love the things I love. The things I love are just OLD-FASHIONED and UNPOPULAR to you all. I never insult those stuff you all like, in fact I tried to love it too. How can you all like this... And you all never bother to listen when I discuss about the things I love. When I finally found someone who can share my thoughts with, you all say I AA.

Somehow I hate CO. I hate CO to the max.

My love is not love. My feeling is not feeling. My tears are fake. My smile is fake. Even one freaking reply to someone's sms is considered flirt. You told me "YOU DONT HAVE TO REPLY" right? You think I really wanna reply you? You think your that freaking face is handsome that I wanna KEEP sms-ing you? I swear I will NEVER smile at you ever again.

透过泪眼看得更清楚. 可为什么我总是看不清?