Every time I got my exam papers, I will feel disappointed. Not because I put in a lot of effort and cannot achieve what I want. It is because I really feel like the 'odd-one-out'.
People are celebrating as they get very good results. And when people ask you how much you've got, you will feel proud to be yourself, like this:
Your friend: How much you got for math har?
You: Seventy something...
Sigh, I am just like the 'You' above. I was expecting something good this prelim but once again, the results just hit me so hard. Sometimes when I think about doing assessment books, I will have the idea of tearing all of them in my mind. Somehow I am too stressed and I can't concentrate whenever I study. When I sit down and think about one maths question I will want to tear the paper. You know, I wasn't like that for the past five years. I always feel proud of my Maths and never get anything lousier than 85. This year, my Maths never get above 80 you know! I told myself, no matter what, I must pick myself up on Maths. But, I will always give up after that. It's like... yea, I think after this prelim, I won't stand up either. You know, it's very painful when you fall. And picking yourself up isn't something easy. I've tried don't know how many times, everytime I tell myself I must do well next time, it's not PSLE yet. But, again and again I fall. Each time more painful than the time before. Sometimes I just tell myself, nevermind lar, do badly also very common, my maths is like shit. The more I think like this, the more my marks drop. And this time, I can't stand up already. I am tired. I am really going to rest this time. It is a challenge for me to stand up again and again. And I think, yea, after this prelim I am not going to pick myself up. I am going to give up. I don't want to try already.
Okay, people. I am going to stop here. I am not going to blog after PSLE. Okay? I will miss you all :) I believe everyone can do very well for PSLE!~ Let 6A be the class that breaks the YuNeng history by scoring the minimum score of 250. I know everyone can do it, if they try their best. Okay, bye bye!~ Will miss you computer, and blog. Miss you all!