Saturday, February 14, 2009

Happy Happy and HAPPY!


I am feeling very happy today! So different from yesterday! I am going to my cousin's house tonight~ AGAIN?! She is celebrating Valentines' Day + Her Hubby's birthday + Her New House's birthday. My family's invited and we will be setting off at about 4pm+ later. :D


So happy that Benedict tagged! I didn't expect someone I am not so familiar with came tagging at my 'nobody-wants-to-come' blog. Lols! And Sing Chien~ my supporter tagged too! :D Can see his tag almost everyday. Yap! He's one of those who keep my blog 'alive' with tags! Claps claps! My Nerdi's birthday is just next Saturday! Everybody must sing him a birthday song!~

Happy Valentines' Day to everyone!

*My rose and Yingna's*

Friday, February 13, 2009

Haiz, why am I so depressed?

Can you feel it?... Sigh... The pain inside my heart is unbearable.

I can't forget the painful moment. Haiz...

The sun is shining brightly now. Ying Na and Zhi Jia, those St Johns people are busy marching in the parade square right now. Eunice and See Onn are happily playing their instruments in band. Wen Qi and Annabella are sadly playing Yang Qin and Gu Zheng in the CO Room now. Ji Ba and my Dad are enjoying their time in the parade square in NCC. 4 Chun is enjoying in Scouts...

Everyone is staying back for CCA today. As I was walking home today, I listened to music with the loudest volume my Realplayer can have. It was so loud that my ears were going to burst but somehow I felt much better after listening to some pop music. Though my heart was still aching now...

I really feel sad today. Don't know why. It's not because of Nerdi getting the rose. It's something that I don't know... I don't know why I'm feeling this way... Just feeling extraordinarily upset. *Looking out of the windows again* The sun is still shining brightly. And I can hear the cicadas...

I think I should forget everything right now and give myself a few minutes or even hours time to think carefully my choice. Or maybe I will go down to the park near my house and breathe some fresh air to help me think better. I must must must think carefully and for a longer time. Must really think again and again. Sigh...

To Wen Qi: No matter how he feels towards you, don't be upset okay? He isn't the only man in the world. There're still other better boys in AHS and since he doesn't treasure you, forget him. Don't waste time on him and use the time looking at him to study. Show him that you're better than THAT girl. Okay? :) Cheer up

Thursday, February 12, 2009

The 14th's Song

Listening to The 14th's Song on my blog... And feeling really sad at the same time...

I am feeling sad for Nerdi...


Sigh... Mmmm... He was sitting on the stairs today, alone. It seemed like he was thinking of something. But the problem is, he's feeling sad. And I just stood there for a few seconds staring at him while he thinks. The feeling was... so sad yet so awkward. What does he got to do with me?

I remembered a lot of things during the orientation. Serene screamed at him, telling him to shut up. Although he was saying something that was caring to all of us... He was asking us if we could hear what the counsillors were trying to say... But then... Serene just screamed at him,"Nerdi, shut up!"

I could vividly remembered his expression when he wiped his face with his left hand when he heard that... I could feel that tears that was rushing out of his eyes... He was just doing something that could help the group, but...

He wrote at his blog that he was feeling really helpless and lonely, in one of his posts... He was really stressed to have tests almost everyday and CCA plus the projects. And a lot a lot of things... Though people say that he is not a good person, but I feel that he is just like the less naughty version of my 02. Whom I really want to care for but can't... I can't do anything about it.


When he's lonely, I can only stare at him from afar. Even if I feel like flying over and sit by his side, I can't. I can only look at him walking sadly away to his classroom, and away from me.
When he feels upset, I can't go over and comfort him. I can only speak softly to myself that he'll be okay. When he feels happy, I can't share the joy with him. But can only pray that the happy moment will last longer so he can smile longer. The feeling I had for 02 was the same as how I felt for Nerdi... haiz

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

My Fate

Omg!!! My dearest, most precious head has a swollen bun on it! ARH! I can't go to school tomorrow with something red on my forehead...
But... It's okay anyway. 博取同情心 from people and ask them for information about Nerdi.
LOLS! Anyway, I have now become the combination of Lynn Ee and Yi Kun. Bai Kah and bandaged head. I just feel so sad for them right now because I am experiencing it myself. All due to swimming class today...
I finally know how to do freestyle, but with the sacrifice of my head and leg. During my 2nd try of swimming without holding my coach's hands, I banged into the wall... Before I could even reach up to rub it, my leg cramped...
Oh my goodness... I told my coach but he said nothing serious, but the thing is swollen until so big. Not very big actually, about 3cm in diameter... Oh yea, I touched Yi Kun's bandage today! Hahas, the thing is so cute! So soft but so cute! Really very cute! I mean the bandage is cute, not Yi Kun or his head.
Lalala~ Nerdi talked to me yesterday on MSN, in a much much much more friendly manner than the first time he spoke to me. I was happy about it. But the problem was that, everytime when I am saying 'byes' to people, he'll sign in. Then I can't bear to sign out but Mum will be nagging... :(

Perhaps that's fate?

Monday, February 09, 2009

Go Go Go

Lalala!~

Please go the link below. Omg, I love it~! Kekeke...*Wicked laugh*

Linkie linkie

Gosh, I kept forcing people to go to links. Lols...

Sunday, February 08, 2009

Jia Jin Jia Jin, which Jia Jin?

Anyway people, I've found a photo of Lynn, who I find assembles Jia Jin. Yes, Jia Jin from 6A. Yes, that Jia Jin who had rumour with Ga Jing. Click onto this link and then tell me if she looks like him. She's the one on the left. :D Click

The 'Jia Jin's

Earphones with super loud music in my ears right now. So loud that I couldn't hear anything from the tv that my brother is watching, Grandsazer. I still can't wake up from Yi Kun's accident. It is so yesterday and I just couldn't forget. Just want to share with you something that happened to me 8 years ago.

My brother was only 3 years old that time. And I always follow him whereever he goes. My dad was teaching in a JC that time. (Obviously, he teaches art.) I knew that my dad would come home at 3pm every Friday because the last lesson of the week would end at 2.30pm. And after clearing up his things and everthing, he would reach home at around 3pm.

It was a Friday. My bro and I were waiting for my dad to come home early that day and take us out for a stroll at the park. So we waited near the flight(is it?) of staircase located just beside my door. We were living on the 4th floor and there were only 2 units living on each floor. So basically it was like this:

---My House--- ----Staircase--- -----My Neighbour---

We were sitting at the doorsteps staring hard at the staircase in case we heard footsteps of my dad. My brother was only 3 years old that time and he didn't know anything. I was holding on to a cup(plastic cup) of soya bean milk my grandfather had made for us. Then my brother stood up and tried to climb up to the handle of the staircase to see if my dad was coming home. I didn't know because I was looking at the cup of soya bean milk.

Suddenly I heard a loud thud. My brother was sitting on one of the steps of the staircase and there was a cut on his forehead. I was so scared that I screamed. My grandfather was in the kitchen so he didn't hear. My grandmother, as I've told you all earlier, was sick so she couldn't walk. So I ran into the kitchen and cried for my grandfather. He was drinking soya bean milk too. I couldn't utter anything that time so I just cried and pointed to the door with my index finger. My heart was thumping up and down and I really couldn't speak. What I did was: cry and cry.

My grandfather immediately rushed out to the door. He was as shocked as me. He quickly carried my brother in his arms and wiped the blood off his head using his sleeves. I was also wearing long sleeve shirt so I used mine to wiped too. My brother was crying like hell. Then he quickly rushed downstairs to call for a taxi and get to the hospital as soon as possible. I didn't follow him along.

Instead I ran into my grandma's room and cried in her arms. My grandma loved my brother more than she loved anyone. She nearly fainted when she heard that. I could feel her hands growing colder and colder. Then she told me to call my dad immediately. But I couldn't explain anything at that time. My grandma was crying all the way. She was telling my father everything while wiping her tears.

After that, my grandma asked me to go upstairs to call my grandma's good friend. She had a friend whose husband is a doctor. I went up and toppled over things for many times. The doctor was on leave that day. He drove to the hospital immediately, without a second word, upon hearing that Jing Wei's hurt.

My dad rushed to the hospital immediately. He came home with my grandpa and bro at around 6pm+. My brother had 3 stitches at the top right of his forehead. He came home with a bandage round his head. Thanks to the doctor. He said he wouldn't be so patient with others. Just because my brother kept crying and kept moving his head, he had to be patient with him. My father told me he couldn't even drive properly while on his way to the hospital.

This is true. You can look for Jing Wei and see the top right of his forehead, there's a scar.

This is a really unforgettable memory... I could never forget it. And this is why I am so concern about Yi Kun's head. It's really... how to say. I can't really concentrate the whole day after the accident and I couldn't even focus on Saturday, which was yesterday. I am a bit afraid to go to school tomorrow... If I see someone with the bandage round his head, I would really don't know what to do...

Anyway, the two person who assemble Jia Jin all got into accidents.
Lynn Ee, who fractured her left leg.
Yi Kun, who hurt his head and had 8 stitches.
I think I better shut my mouth tight these days... Doomed, I said Zer Hien looks like Sing Chien and Kai Boon looks like Hopkins... And Stacy assembles Jia Yi...
GOD! RONG RONG YOU BETTER SHUT UP!