I am drowning myself in Japanese shows. This is my 3rd time watching Hana Kimi(Japanese version. Taiwan version sucks). Thinking about Nakatsu every second is better than sobbing and get too stressed up. : ) Hmm... I will never forget this show. It's too 经典. No show can replace the place it has in my heart. It can make you laugh till you have stomachache and it has the power to make you cry till you can't speak. Nung told me she cried till her eyes swollen when she watched the last episode. At first I didn't believe but when I myself watched it, I had the same feeling. It can make you cry as if you lose someone who is most important in your life. Just like that way I cried when I lost my grandma. Yup. I would love it forever! Japanese show rocks!
Feeling sad again. I don't know how to say. Seriously I hate calling people who won't respond to me. Like sometimes I would wave to them, then they would pretend they didn't see me. Treating me like a transparent person. I think I'm being too friendly already. My mood changed when this kind of thing happened. I think I better put on a black face when I see people and pretend not to see them. Why am I ALWAYS the one who raises her hand and wave or opens her mouth to say hello?
I was walking home from bus stop and I saw someone from AHS. Somemore we've been in the same primary school. I saw him/her and raised my hand to wave. He/she looked at me for one second and looked away. My mood was totally destroyed by him/her. So I told myself I would shut up and black face for the rest of the journey.
But someone actually called my name when my mum called while I was in front of YNPS. Sean. He's really a nice guy. We have not seen each other for so long already and he remembers me. Of course I smiled super widely at him and screamed a very happy 'HI'. That is why I feel that I like those in the F and G class.
What for to be in the first or second class when you don't even have the basic courtesy? You're now studying and we're all just friends. You must practise good manners since now isn't it? Wait till you go out to the society and get neglect by people(like your collegues) then you realise you've been too 'cold' is too late. Don't act so 'high-class' and ACT cool. If you're really cool, you will be cooler if you are friendly.
I think I'm being too friendly already. I will change. Change into a black face person who doesn't smile but finds everything annoying and see if you like it or not. Please la, if you are a 'high-class' person you would have the feel, don't ACT. Cuz you're not good at it.
I found it really weird. I don't really want to have lunch. But didn't have gastric pain or whatever. Hmm. Nevermind. Had headache today. Half of my head(right) is really painful. The feeling of something pressing against my skull. I think the main reason was I didn't sleep well these nights. Went to bed at around 12am+ and I believed it's already 1am when I fell asleep.
Stayed back for a while after school. Was chatting with Fish, Huang Xin and Ying Na. After that Hui Wen came for a while then went don't know where. Hmm sigh. Chatted with SC.
Is he really like your god? You must act as if you're his dog? You worship him is it? Blog everything bout him it's just stupid
Why do you care so much bout someone Who doesn't give a shit about you I don't understand Does he even know of your existence Even if he does, will he even BE with you? Face facts It'll never happen if it does you cut your wrist
These are what SC told me. He's all right. Every point is right. I meant nothing to him and I should give up. Bear the pain. Smile with tears but I will wipe it off brave-ly. All those happy memories will vanish. 常一个人傻傻地做梦. 有的时候会一个人傻笑. 有的时候会一个人为了小小的事流泪. 我永远就是那么傻. 妈妈老是说,"女孩子不需要那么机灵." 可是我就是太傻了. 总是那样傻傻的付出. 傻傻的等, 傻傻的做那个隐形人. 可以把自己变成另一个人. 我为什么要这么傻?! 为什么要做无畏的付出?! 我真的累了... 真的很累... 好希望能够洗清记忆, 不在有那一个人的存在 或许我会更快乐. ^ ^ 听歌. 很好听的. 每次听了就会不自觉流泪. 我觉得, 哭出来会更开心一点. ^ ^ 哭吧. 陪我. : )
会呼吸的痛
歌手：梁静茹
作词：姚若龙 作曲：宇恒
在东京铁塔 第一次眺望
看灯火模仿 坠落的星光
我终於到达 但却更悲伤
一个人完成 我们的梦想
你总说 时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天 就有以后
想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛
连沉默也痛 遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛
没看你脸上 张扬过哀伤
那是种多麽 寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙 让我去流浪
在原地等我 把自己捆绑 你没说 你也会软弱
需要倚赖我我就装不晓得
自由移动 自我地过
我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着
你在就好了
我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的
无论什麽我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰
你回来那就好了
能重来那就好
(Those in pink are those I think is meaningful to me)
Can you believe it? It's almost 2am in the morning and I'm still using computer. I was still doing/rushing my homework at around 12am when my dad declared that he needed to use the laptop to do some updates for his iPhone. Insisting on finishing my EL homework tonight, I offered to help him download the stuff while I continue doing my homework. Out of the blue, he agreed. (Agree to leave his dearest phone with me :P)
My mum fell asleep when she was reading newspaper. So my dad told me to quickly finish up my work and go sleep while they all leave me alone. T.T Actually is I want to 串通宵... Hmm. It's damn quiet. o.O I can even hear the clock ticking.
And I have no idea why iTunes just didn't want to open when I first clicked it. So I downloaded the latest version and tried. And that required me to restart the com. -.- Fine, since I myself offered to help, I am gonna do it! So I waited for the com to restart while I read the last chapter of The Joy Luck Club. (Fast right?! Last chapter already!)
Luckily it opened. *Yawns* Waited for the latest update to download, then extract... Now it's finally sync-ing with my dad's phone. Feeling super mega(my bro's language) sleepy. I can fall asleep immediately when I lie on my bed... Sleepy... 30% more to go... JIA YOUS PHONE!!!
Got carried away by my own thoughts just now. ^ ^ Was thinking about seeing Nerdi 40h later. XD Feeling super happy. That's all. Need to chiong homework now. First time doing stupid last minute job. My mum said that's what my bro always does, shouldn't be me. Sadly, this time it's really me. : (
