Bad Luck

Blogger is screwed. Just like what Hui Wen said. Grr... Don't really feel like posting everyday. Hmm. Nothing exciting really happened these days. Go to school, study, CCA, go home. The pattern repeats.

Basically, I did nothing today. Read the first chapter of Breaking Dawn while eating my breakfast. After that, practised pipa for about 20 minutes. Practised Guzheng for about one and a half hour. Learnt to play the third part of 彝族舞曲. Then played the songs I learnt for a few more times.

Then I fell asleep after practising. Hmm... Woke up at around 2pm and ate my lunch. Went down to buy bubble tea. Good that I had a stroll to get some fresh air. Then listened to music for a long period of time. Then fell asleep again. I really did nothing at all but sleep and sleep. I can't think that's all. Simply no mood to study. Just no mood yea.

: ] I sprained my left ankle so I can't really move around fast. Totally in bad luck this month. Hmm...

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Thanks TAYN.

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Thanks Wen Jing. Call me Rong. : [

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Yo rongx2! ;D eh cool tb & bs o.o &

sorry i didn't wish ya happy bday! Didn't know leh ><>

Mei Nv! Thanks!~!! It's okay hahas! : D

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Yea! You're always so white!~

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JINGWEI... -.-

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Evil...

JINGWEI: HI RONG ni hao

Erm hi...

Hates to Stay Back

Nothing to post these days. All those happy moments are erased when I reached home. My mum is really troubled and worried about my grandpa. I couldn't really smile a second at home. Life is getting weird. The atmosphere is just not the same. Everybody is not speaking and I just stay in my room and do homework or listen to music.

I wonder when Grandpa will come home. Dad said he will stay for at least a week in the hospital. Sigh. One day is enough for me and it's going to be a week. I'm dying... Sitting alone in my room doing Math is something I never did before. It's just so boring. Moreover, I can't think. I don't even know how to find HCF and LCM. Man what am I doing?!

Aww... Nerdi is currently occupying my free time these few days. I will guess what he is doing when I feel bored with my homework. : ] And I'm glad he's more hardworking now. Okay don't want to talk more about him now.

Saw Mandy and Yee Yong on the way home today. Mandy looked the same, cute and white while Yee Yong changed a lot. Mainly his voice. It was so low. Hmm... :\

Nothing to talk about. Just pray that Grandpa will be fine after one week. This week is really crucial. Yup. : ) Noooo I don't want to stay back for CCA!!! Lin Lao Shi is not coming this week and life's going be to bored AGAIN!!! *Screams*

SMILE BABE

I MUST SMILE!!!

NO RONG you mustn't cry!!!

SMILE RONG RONG, SMILE!

Hahas I still remember I'm PMRR.

PM doesn't cry yea? Cheer up babe!

Remember what a dramatic movement you did today!

'Oh man, that was FORFEIT!'

Think of Nerdi's smile!

Recall? Yup! ^ ^

Sigh...

I don't know if I'm going to school tomorrow or not. Too much things are starting to stream in and I can't take it at once. I enjoyed school today. But when I reached home, things started to happen... Man.

My mum told me my grandpa fell down this morning and he can't move his limbs now. She couldn't take him to the clinic but she called my dad. Yea. But my dad had lessons till 7pm. Sigh I could not dare to utter a word then. The only thing I did was to stare the sky and sigh.

Just now, my mum called. She was crying again, saying that they were rushing to the Changi Hospital. The doctor expected him to be hospitalised. Sigh. What must there be such things happening in my life!? He was having the same experience as my grandma. No no... I don't want it to happen. NO.

Seriously I can't do anything now. All I can do is cry... I'm just so useless. I'm just a weakling. I SUCK. Hate myself.

Saw the picture on Nerdi's facebook. It just added another burden on me. I can't take it anymore. No more... I'm giving up. It has to end somewhere. And now it's the time.

I thought today would be the happiest day of my life but somehow one of the saddest. Fine.

Grandma... Emo

Blogger seems to be having problems again. Ctrl + F5 is not working now. Argh, very annoyed at this moment...

Went to Nerdi's blog. His posts are all making me more irritated. Reading people's posts always give me some peaceful moments and some time to rest. But his are all getting my nerves. I wish I had never read them. Yea...

Talking about Nerdi. Somehow I feel that he's slowly fading away in my life. Somehow I would stop thinking about him and when people mention the things he does, I get less interested. And whatever he is doing stop getting my attention. Although he's not wondering around in my life now, he's still appearing in my dreams.

It's like, today I didn't see him, didn't bother to think about him, at night I will still dream about him. WTH. And almost everytime it's the same scene. That is he looks at me without expression and then disappear. Sometimes in the June holidays, I woke up with teary eyes. But it has become a habit that now I don't really bother to recall the dream after I wake up.

This is what I checked from one website for dreams.

在梦中和对方像情人一般的交往，代表你和他能成为情人的机会很微。如果在梦中只可从远方望对方，表示你和他实际上沟通有问题。如果在梦中看见对方离你远去，代表实际上你和他是有机会发展的，只是你常常错失机会而已。

Nerdi is just a distraction. He doesn't give me good grades and doesn't plan a bright future ahead for me. What I am supposed and must do is to study. I must study. I must remember the pain my grandma had endured to take care of me.The sad moment when she passed away. The moment when my mum became speechless and could not cry even though her heart was breaking. The moment when all my relatives knelt down and tried to pull my mum up and she just sat there staring at my grandma...

Although I was very young that time, I could still remember. My mum was kneeling on the ground, not crying because she had cried too much, saying that she hadn't seen my grandma for the last time. She was saying, "妈, 我连你最后一面都没看到. 你就走了... 我还有好多好多话还没有跟你说..." I could not utter a word that time because I was crying too much too. And my dad was kneeling beside her too. That was the first time I saw my dad cry.

My mum said my grandma took care of me even when she was very sick and needed to be hospitalised. She just wished that I could be a successful person so her effort can pay off. But before she even see my success, she left...

Why am I emo-ing... Sigh. I miss my grandma again. Comfort me...

Quiz!~

Feeling very annoyed right now. Grrr... The stupid blogger does not allow me to upload my photos, AGAIN?! It has been ages since blogger first had a problem. Is there something with my com? I don't think so. Just feeling annoyed. Nevermind. I had not been doing quizzes for a long time!!! So it's time to start again! ^ ^ (What a gigantic change in the mood o.O)

Okay this is from Wen Lin's blog.

★Are you happy ?
If you're gonna count in percentage, that will be 56.02351%. Lols.

★Are you bored ?
No. I'm packed with things to do.

★Are you fair ?
To who?

★Are you italian ?
Yes? Of course not.

★Are you honest ?
Dont be 自恋. NO.

★Are you nice?
What do you think?

★Are you irish?
... No! -.-

★Are you Asian ?
Yep~ And I'm proud to be one.

★ Full Name :
Deng Rong Rong

★Nickname :
Ying Na they all gave me one recently. PMRR. Most of the time people just call me Rong. I had a nickname when I was P4, and now Huiwen is still calling me that, Ah Rong. ^ ^


★Hair colour :
White? HAHA, black. : )

★Natural Hairstyle :
?

★Birthday :
7 August. Easy to remember, 2 days before National Day.

★Mood :
Neutral, not too acidic nor alkaline (Results of doing too much Science)

★Favourite Colours:
Pink, sky blue, black, and white, the holy colour.

★One place you like to visit :
AHS. : )

★ Have you been in love?
No.

★Do you believe in love at first sight?
If you're asking me to give the percentage, I will give you 70%.

★Do you currently have a crush?
I don't believe you don't have one. : P Yes.

★Have you ever broken anyone's heart?
Yea...

★Have you ever been hurt emotionally?
Yea!... T.T

★Have you ever had your heart broken and when?
Yea... I forgot when.

★Have you ever liked anyone but is afraid of telling him?
Before I could tell, he always knows. That is the main thing I can't have crushes.

★Are you afraid commitment?
Yea...

★Who was the last person you hugged?
I forgot... Maybe my Piglet.

★Who was the last person you said i love you to?
I forgot.

★Cats or Dogs ?
Doggies better.

★A few best friends or any regular friends ?
A few best friends of course.

★Creamy or crunchy ?
Creamy. : )

★Wild night out or romantic night?
Romantic night.

★Money or happiness?
I want both. :P

★Night or day?
Both good.

★IM or phone?
Both. ;D

★Been caught sneaking out?
-.-///

★Seen a polar bear?
Yup. If you've been to last year's amazing run with Mrs Lee, you should know.

★Done something you regret?
Yes. That is to know Nerdi.

★Bungee jumped?
? o.O

★Eaten food that fell on th floor?
Only in my house.

★Finished an entire jaw breaker?
No...

★Been caught naked?
*Both eyes widen* What?!...

★Wanted an ex gf/bf back?
Hmm... Dont wanna answer.

★Cried because you lost a pet?
I don't own pets. If my Piglet is my pet, it will never die. :D

★Wanted to disappear?
For what...

★Smile or eyes?
Smile~

★Light or dark hair?
Dark hair.

★Hugs or Kisses ?
Hugs. Kiss is disgusting.

★Shorter or Taller?
Taller~

★Intelligence or attraction?
Both~

★Funny or serious?
Sometimes funny sometimes serious. But most of the time funny.

★Older or Younger?
Older.

★Outgoing or quiet?
Outgoing. But not over outgoing.

★Sweet or bad?
Sweet at times but most of the time bad.

★Ever performed in front of a large crowd?
... A lot of times?

★Talking on a phone longer then a hour?
Nope so far. I don't really express my views through phone.

★Ever tried walking on your hands?
Haha. No.

★Ever been to a rock concert?
No.

★Ever been on a cheerleading team?
No...

★Ever been on a dance team?
No.

★Ever been on a sport team?
No.
WHY ALL NO?!

★Ever been in a drama play/production?
Yep.

★Ever owned a BMW
o.O What do you think?

★Ever been in a rape video?
-.- *Speechless*

★Last phone call you made?
Hui Wen

★Last person you hugged?
Forgot.

★Last person you hanged out with?
Bro.

★Last time you worked?
Work with my homework. In the morning.

★Last time you IM-ed to?
Forgot. I believe I have short term memory.

★Last person you talked to?
My bro. I meant I nagged at him for playing with ice cubes.

★Last person you went to movie with?
It has been ages since I last movie-d.

★Last person/thing you missed?
Who else can I miss?

★Last website visited?
http://www.credulity-rapturous.blogspot.com/


Yea that would be all. : )