Badly Hurt

Remember to read the previous post!

It seemed like my blog is dead. Yea. Exams are coming, people are revising and chiong-ing their homework. Hmm, but you mustn't abandon my blog! T.T I will be very disappointed! Okay today I am happy. ^^ Hehe. Early in this morning I was sms-ing Jin Jing. Not very early actually. It's because I woke up quite late... Yea. 12.30am

She said she felt sad after reading my previous post. I felt sad too, everytime I read it. I feel like crying. Sigh. She said a lot a lot of things that meant a lot to me and I guess I would never forget for the rest of my life. It was a long talk. I sent the longest sms I've ever typed - 7. All the complaints and troubles I am having.

It's time to let go, I supposed.

I have been the stupid-est person in the world for almost 10 months. Am I going to continue living and pretending that I don't know anything for the rest of next year? I will die with regret if that's the case. I just keep talking about dying and dying that is so 不吉利. But now I feel that death doesn't seem frightened to me.

I know I am a pessimist...

I have never experienced feeling down for so long. I thought I can cheer up last night. Sat in front of Guzheng for almost 2 hours yet I don't feel the mood change like I always did in the past. Sigh. Never felt so upset and disappointed before... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

To her:

I thought we can be best friends when we are P5. How do I know that you actually wanted to have a friend that is useful to you? I know I was once useful to you because I know someone that was once a person you wanted to befriend badly. Is fame you are going after?

Now. You are still the same. You follow her all around just to stay close to the person you are persueing. Do you have to do that? Feeling so 低级 around her and yet you have to bear with it. Can't you feel the pain? Friends are meant to be loved, not to be used. When will you change? Why must you like the person people told you that they like? Why? It's not a matter of once, it had happened TWICE.

I don't want to type anymore. I want to cry.

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Natasha told me this which cheered up me instantly. She told me that Wanqing's personal message was "Have a Wanqing and smile". And very coincidently, my personal message is "How can I smile with you around?"

HAHA! I am laughing. ^^

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One more thing made me happy. That's Wenqi's post!^^ ^^ Wenqi! You revived my life!

"Your smile is the only thing that keeps me alive."

-Rong

12.23am 27 Sep 2009

Mid-autumn Festival Celebration

Blogger's finally back to normal~! Woots! I can FINALLY post photos!
(From left to right)

^^ Mr Yeow sleeping on bus, on the way back from the learning journey.

I forgot to keep my music stand, my bro took that opportunity to put his piggy on it. =.=

Mdm Zee's Garfield. SO CUTE.

Alaric crazying over Dr Boon...

Jason playing piano. Haha. Forgot which song he played. It's either Kiss the Rain or River Flows in You.

My HomeE practical. :P Nice hor?

Bunch of thumbdrives...

My bro bought this for my cousin. CUTIE.

Notice the bear bear? Yu Jie's noodle by the way.

Ziqing. Lols does she look like a whale? XD

Birthday gift for my cousin. Nice?

Jason! *Evil stare* Huangxin arh, what did you say when taking that photo?!

Yingna and Huang Xin. YN looked so retarded. I think she's a bit too high.

DADDY! He was trying to act macho but in the end he had to abandon that pose. XD Then he said he bent down so he looked shorter because I insisted I'm taller than him.

Huangxin and Yingna again. Huangxin was not happy with that pose that she moved. Yingna was putting on the same smile. -.-

Felicia! Heh. She closed her eyes. T.T

Yingna went crazy, like Alaric.

Huangxin, JinJing, Me, and Xiao Bai Long. XD

Mid-autumn festival celebration was overally emo for me but fun/boring for others. I just couldn't cheer up. Seeing HER appearing again and again in front of me. She's just so annoying. Can't she take that route?! Nevermind, calm down. I must not ruin my post too.


Ai Jia sang out of tune tonight. Lols. I prefer Shawn's voice! It was really nice~ Yup. Didn't see any moonwalk move from the 2 CD guy. Xiao Bai Long's Cherish was touching. Love it. And Mr Thomas Goh rocks with his dizi. Emcees were funny. Yea. That's all.


After that I joined Wenqi in lighting the paper lanterns. Kneeling for more than half an hour made my knees red and pain, and my legs cramped. Then I realised someone was very near me. It was Nicholas. No feeling already Nung, so near yet I had no feeling. :)


I got impatient very soon and decided to walk around the school. It was amazing. The school looked more mysterious and fun at night. ^^ Saw Nerdi with... Fine. DON'T RUIN MY MOOD NOW. I had spent enough time crying over stupid things and I wanna put an end to this. Don't mention her name again. I even thought of dying in a car accident just now so I don't need to face the reality.

I couldn't hear a single word my mum said tonight. She was very shocked that I just bear with her nags and did not argue. After she finished nagging, I asked her,"Err what did you say just now?" which made her both angry and funny. When my dad came home, he asked me about today's celebration and I only gave him an one word answer: good. When he asked more, I just nodded, not answering anything. I was just too carried away by my own thoughts... They both knew that there's something wrong with me so they just left me alone. Yea... I know. Something is wrong with my brain again.

Sigh. I wonder when I will get severely injured and suffer from concussion so I will not see and hear those things. By then, I will know who care for me the most and who doesn't even bother. "患难见真情". I seriously want to know how it feels like.

Random

Bought 2 super cute piggy(piggy is being used as an adjective here)mooncakes from the traditional cake shop located quite a distance away from my house. Actually there were quite beautiful ones, like those creamy ones, but I thought of giving the mooncake to my form teacher, then I decided to buy something cute instead. Muahaha~ Was sms-ing Yingna on the way there, and talking to her on the phone on the way back. ^^ We were talking about some````*cough* and yea~~~ That's all. Full stop.

I showed my mooncake to my dad just now. And he gave me the lame look. HAHA. Hmm I saw something nice at Zoey's blog and tried it. IT WAS FUN. ^^ Looking forward to Friday! : D

MY NEW HAIRSTYLE~

Haha Fishie told me something funny that happened this morning. HAHA. Ziqing and her were in the canteen before I and Yingna reached there. Yup. Then Fishie was not very sure if the person who was walking beside Yingna me, same goes to Ziqing. HAHA. She was thinking,"Eh? Usually Rongrong should be with Yingna what... Isn't that person Rongrong? Eh?! No?... Yes?"

HAHA. When the bell rang for flag raising ceremony, Jin Jing, Wenqi, Amanda came down... And they were all shocked too!~ All those people who saw me today gave me the same look. ^ ^ Which I had expected.

Nothing much happened. Can't believe it. 7 Chun actually has a scar on his hand. o.O And there's one pimple solo-ing-ly popping out on Nerdi's face. o.O. That's all. Done. Finish posting. Going to have dinner now~ BYES~!

My LATEST Hairstyle~

So glad that my blog isn't dead. Phew~ : D Must thank everybody that bother to come my blog, read my post, and TAG. Hehe. Hmm. Went to cousin's house today for her birthday. Oh yea, it's Hari Raya today, cousin's birthday as well as cousin's mum-in-law's 57th birthday. ^^ Had an enjoyable day at her house. Hmm. Tell you all something. You all will have a great shock when you see me in school on Tuesday. I cut my hair... T.T

Okay. Just look forward to seeing me la. Tag if you are already shocked by my words. As for how I've trimmed it, I'm not gonna say it here. Hahas! Keep you waiting. Don't know if you feel that it's nice. But overall, I like the new hairstyle~ HAHA. Just the way I wanted it to be. Hmm... Is it Kim Jandi hairstyle? Zixin's hairstyle? Or some other things???????? NOT GONNA TELL YOU.

So, see you on Tuesday!!! Don't tell me you don't recognise me when you see me! I will slap you de har!