有时候想想，我为什么要来这里？到底来了这里的我有多幸福？家里的人个个都羡慕我能“出国”读书，似乎出国这个词对他们来说是多么高级。但他们又怎么知道在这个现实的世界里我活地多么压力。在老家，想做什么就做什么。虽然环境并不是很理想，毕竟我有自由。

突然觉得我其实很胆小。我为什么总是怕面对那些事和人？平常容易相处的我去了哪里？我到底该怎么做？我总觉得自己做得不够，所以一直努力地做到最好。可是我越努力，包袱就越重。为什么？我不停的构思，每天都在紧张能不能及时完成布告栏。到最后，我终于把我的那份做完了。我还以为这终于告一段落了，结果呢？它还是毁了。本来星期五就可以收工的，现在我还要努力去想办法把它救活。

刚才我居然花了大概半个钟头望着天空。我想问，为什么上天对我这么不公平？很久没有这样静一静了。现在才一月啊，还要多久才能停止？以后我什么都不管好不好？我觉得我真的很多余。那个组有没有我都一样。

我真的想放弃了...

Tag replies:

jing: sorryyy...i am making it full.....
jing: it is going to be f\half year only very fast de..........
jing: haha ....cheer up!!!!!!!this year streaming dont let all these things borther ...i
jing: it is just a matter of positive or negative life ..u think which one will be happier??!!!!
jing: life isnt fair .....i finally realised it so ...but we still have to go on .....
jing: just dont make urself do all the thing i think this way will make you feel not so stress up ....
jing: cheer up come on .....smile life isnt that bad with the PW thingy....
jing: next notice boeadr ask them to do TOGETHER u will not be so streess and got all fault on urself
jing: then maybe next time u dont carry the burden urself since nobody appreaciate......
jing: yo rong why so emo and sad!!!!!cheer up...t

Wow JinJing you really tagged a lot. THANKS. : ) Sigh, the problem is that nobody cares. I think welfare this job doesn't suit me. I want to quit.

YINGNA: BOO!

Boo ya too Yingna!

WanTing: hello rongrongggggg =)

Hello Wanting~~

yiling(: not fair why u wish gj nv wish me happi bdae? haahah nah just kidding

Sorry. :( Happy birthday too Yiling! XD

Fiona: Hey Rong Rong ! tag !":D

Thanks Fiona!! *Hugs*

jing: i think is wu jian hao

The F4 guy... O.O

Manda Panda: HAhas so you still ended up doing the notice board. Hahas.

Yea, the suckish job. : (

Mandy: LOL. he shoot up mah XP

O.O I thought he won't grow already. XD

jing: yo yo rong !!!!!....ur post very long leh...u must have lots of free time hor.

No la, all my time is spent to think about you. ^^

CHICKEN!: WAH. Being friendly is good. Must be like me. ^^

Really? I think if you are too friendly to people they will bully you. But I believe nobody dares to bully you cuz you will poke them with your chicken feet. XD

Stress just streams in and nobody understands. Going to bed at 1am everyday is definitely unhealthy. But the problem is, who cares? Everytime I feel like doing something, I will be restricted to do it. Why?

I ruined the noticeboard. Sigh. Was it all MY fault?

I hate Music. I mean I hate it more and more.

I hate HomeEc, although Mrs Phua is so nice and the lessons SHOULD BE enjoyable.

I hate Art, although I like Mdm Zee.

Thanks to the project, I had my life shortened.

I have to swallow the tears. I tried to do everything but then in the end what I get in return? I tried to stay enthu in school, trying my very best to fake out a smile. But people just think I am crazy. Fine. I shall stop doing anything now. Want to die, die together. I don't mind, really.

Well did I say anything wrong or what. Do you know you always ruin people's mood?

These days I am happy, because I start to like my classmates more.(Except one, ZJ should know) Everyone was crowding in front of the notice board to help during SEL today, EVEN THE GUYS! Miracle. Last year I believe only Joel helped. Joel...T.T This year we girls just do those drawings while the guys do the stapling of the mahjong paper. (Actually is teacher asked them one la. OMG SINGLISH.) But some of them volunteered to help from the beginning, which is good.

This shows my class is still a 不分你我 class. ^^ I love this kind of classmates. Like what Mrs Kwek trained 6Acers to be. (Mrs Kwek.. T.T Long time didn't see her already) Guys and girls can be friends and can play together. ^^ Yup. This kind of class is better right? I don't like those kind arh, girls stay in a group, then guys stay in a group. Then if a girl talks to a guy then people will rumour about them ETC... How childish.

I finished doing everything quite early today and planned to finish my Chinese when I found out I left my textbook in school. =.= For the 100th time I've been doing this and I STILL DIDN'T LEARN MY LESSON. Hmm. Need to chiong tomorrow during recess... ARGH.

Okay it's 11+ now and I AM GOING TO SLEEP!! ^^

Miracle.

List of 'homework' for the weekend.

1. History research. (JinJing's gonna be jealous XD)
2. Math, from textbook
3. Chinese, dictionary work
4. Sign my failed English test XD
5. HomeEc research, recipes.
6. Print a photo of a tiger for Jolene
7. Bake cake!

Well I baked cakes this afternoon. ^^ Most of them don't taste good. HAHA. I forgot to add in sugar when I beat the mixture using the 'beater'. This is rather stupid. Which cake on earth has no sugar in it?! Common sense right?! But I still forgot, nevermind. Salty cakes are nice. LOL!

Bad news. Mum received phone calls, both from my grandpa's bro and my aunt(dad's sis). T.T They were telling us to have some preparation and stuff. Mum is really upset that she cried this morning. Dad's restaurant is going to start 营业 tomorrow. Hope everything goes fine. Sigh. Mum told us that grandpa will definitely get well although in her heart, she knows what is happening. She must keep the pain to herself. It must be hard on her these days...

Chinese New Year is coming. SIGH. 2009 is not a peaceful year for my family. Hope the coming of CNY will wash our bad luck away. Let's look forward. Hmm.