Saturday, February 05, 2011

A lot of things are just "happened to" happen.

QQ Music player always give recommendations when I signed in. I used to ignore but there's this time I saw the picture that goes with the title quite interesting, so I added that piece of music into my music player. I continued my SNSD songs and only HAPPENED TO listen to that song after that. From that day onwards, if I ever turned on QQ music player, that song would be the 5th in the list. And the title of the song is..

Air On the G String.

That's why I was surprised when Mu Cheng played it when she was a kid.

Eh wait, I don't HAPPENED TO like Canon in D. I like it for some special reasons. It was once so important to me that I listened to it at least 10 times a day. Now... I do it every night before I go to sleep. Not that frequent anymore, but it won't fade away. Everybody has something that has special meanings to them. Yes...

The stage.

Friday, February 04, 2011


从那遥远海边,慢慢消失的你,
本来模糊的脸,竟然渐渐清晰,
想要说些什么,又不知从何说起
只有把它放在心底
茫然走在海边,
看那潮来潮去,徒劳无功想把,
每朵浪花记清,想要说声爱你。
却被吹散在风里,猛然回头你在哪里?

如果大海能够唤回曾经的爱,
就让我用一生等待,
如果深情往事你已不在留恋,
就让他随风飘远。

如果大海能够带走我的哀愁,
就象带走每条河流,
所有受过的伤,所有流过的泪,
我的爱,请全部带走。



Exhausted.
I think I need at least 3 more months
to get rid of those memories completely.

Thursday, February 03, 2011

I read the 1000 messages. It's the first time and I'm glad that I didn't have any special fee-ling as I read them one by one. I really scrolled to the bottom of the page and started from the first message. :D I laughed at some messages and was wondering what happened to me when there are angry replies. I'm sorry. I think sometimes I'm really very harsh at my words. I said I hate you. I purposely dao you to see if you panick

My childish acts to see if you cared. Hmm. :')

Now when I feel sad, I will just call your name. Sometimes I look up to the sky and ask if you're alright. Hmm I'm just so stupid. :) That's GEORGIE, a dumb GEORGIE...
Yay. Mum gave me 压岁钱 and now I start to regret that I didn't get the ribbon ring from White Sands. DAMN IT.

Zhi Jia and WenJing's recommendation. ARGH NOW I CAN'T STOP LISTENING TO IT.


Tag replies.

jing: dont copy cat me , i am saying u =o

WOH?!

gabriel: i also agree with the second paragraph HAHA.

Good. You're a guy and you agree.

jing: dont even c himself got how many percent !!! zzz so ugly

jing: stupid freak , lost interest liao than dont even borther u , flirt thn find new girls wth !!!zz==

jing: woah i am so agree with ur 2nd paragraph

(Y) TOTALLY ZAI.

gabriel: some guys don't even like talking to girls. HAHA.

Like CK in the past.

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

Don't say I'm petty.
Jing said if she did it once and that's your response, she will not do it the second time. I did it once to Yu Jie's senior well there wasn't a second. For you, thrice. I always believe you worth it. It's okay because after all I was the over-enthusiastic one. I'm sorry but I don't have the courage to do it again. Although I find it hard to just walk away like this... Well, you won't care. Don't say I'm your friend, I don't fit to be one.

Guys are of the same pattern. They get close to you, treat you like a very good friend, then leave once they lose interest in you. They stop bothering you and find another new girl and the cycle repeats. It takes a while to notice how selfish guys are and they just don't care about people's feelings. Don't get misunderstood, I'm not referring to one particular person. Actually DYK is okay, at least when you speak to him after a long time, he will still be as friendly and kiddish(is there such word!?).

I've lost faith in too many people that slowly I'm making up my mind about many things. I've changed many views I had for life and now I understand love =/= relationship =/= marriage. As what Jing's friend WangMin posted as her status: You will be happy if you feel the love in your heart. If you want me to choose between my own happiness and many people's happiness, I will definitely sacrifice mine. I know I'm dumb and crazy but it's a fact that nothing lasts..

源于舞台,终于舞台. It started on the stage, it will end on the stage.

Monday, January 31, 2011

我只能说...

有些人就是有缘无分.
又怎能怨天忧人呢..

Sunday, January 30, 2011

"我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘"

When was the last time I was SO HIGH and crazy that I have no worries and was enjoying my life?

一开始就是个错误.
遇见你就是个错误.
原本无忧无虑的生活,
原本不在意他人眼光的我...

变了... 都不一样了.

笑容好假. 是为了笑而笑.
泪水也假, 是为了哭而哭.
整个人就是假的,,
因为我不再是从前的我.

最怕孤单的我, 现在却习惯一个人.
从前只要五分钟没人陪, 就会开始发短信烦人.
这就是我, 从前的我.
现在, 一个人出门逛街, 做自己喜欢的事.
一个人的时候, 总会有很多东西让你思考.
因此很多时候我宁愿走路也不乘车.

我喜欢一个人搭巴士.
特别是那种很久很久才到站, 又不多乘客的巴士.
看着窗外的风景, 多多少少有些感触.
从不开口的小贩叔叔, 在我对他展现笑容后,
亲切地用闽南语说了句"多谢".
我当时很感动.
之后的半个小时, 那两个字都还在脑海里徘徊...
到附近的奶茶店, 那位阿姨一看到我就问我:
"很久没有看到你了小妹."
我笑了笑, 点了我要的奶茶.
阿姨看着我, 说: "你喔, 你的笑容好美."
我吓了一跳, 她在说我吗?
于是转过头去看后面有没有其他女生..


以前的我, 觉得什么都好笑.
妈妈总是说:"你为什么不美, 就是因为很少笑."
笑容...

在哪里?