I don't understand why I am not close to you at all. I freak out when you touch me. I get angry when you try to tickle me. I don't like fooling around with you but I'm okay to play with JingWei. I just hate you trying to get close to me and act friendly with me. I HATE IT.

Just one thing, I can't get close to you AT ALL.

不知从何时开始，我不再放入100%心思去了解一个人，不再100%相信刚认识的人。对每个人，我都建立一个隔膜，无论如何都不会跨过界线。这就是现在的我，不再发长长的短信给谁，不再关心谁在做什么事。对他们，我只会用冷漠对待。

Please don't say I am chatting ABOUT guys every time on MSN with my friends. And there's absoloutely no problem about talking TO guys too. I don't understand what's your problem man. Seriously I don't need those serious talks with your friend. You know I have my stand and I know what I should do.

It's totally ridiculous man. I know it's your job to make me study because it's all for my future. I can assure you I WON'T like anyone out there. Seriously I'm working hard now. I'm not in the mood for relationships or having a crush. Enough means enough. I have things I've planned to do and I must work very hard to get it.

You said I NEVER put in effort and using computer for 3h on a FRIDAY night = ALWAYS USING THE COMPUTER + USE TOO MUCH COMPUTER. This is terrible. Chatting for 1h = ALWAYS CHATTING WITH FRIENDS ABOUT USELESS STUFF.

Okay I'm telling you this. To me, there're really stuffs which are more important than homework. I need to think about how my friends feel and when they are unhappy, I feel that I should step in to help. I can submit late work but I can't ignore fee-lings to do homework. I'm not a mugger like XX. He/She can quarrel with his/her friend because that friend doesn't wanna lend him/her a piece of damn-ed homework.

This won't happen to me. TYVM.