No.. KhunToria is ending. <|3 They've been through nearly 70 episodes together. Nichkhun even brought her to Thailand to see her "in-laws" and now everything's coming to an end. That time when Adam couple were ending, both Jokwon and Ga-in cried till their eyes swelled.

There's an ending to everything.. There's no forever. Yea there's no forever.

I was looking at SNSD videos on the way home and I realised HyoYeon always got neglected and the camera just won't go to her. Is it because YoonA is the image/prettiest of SNSD so her face must be shown most of the time? But she doesn't get to sing that's really sad. When you get to sing, you tend to stand out because that YOUR part.

Singing is hard, yes it is. And TaeYeon's angelic voice (she sang Korea national anthem during one soccer match) is not just PLAY PLAY. Everyone can dance but not everyone can sing. That's why those who can sing get the attention. Everytime I look at HyoYeon I just feel a little bitter and no matter what, I WILL LOVE HYOYEON, DANCING QUEEN!

Okay I've thought of this again and again. Music is NOT for living. Yes it is not. Unless you're a true pro at it and you are gonna dedicated your whole life into it, you will never be the best. Know why? There're simply TOOOOO many people doing the same thing as you. Today I overheard, (okay I always always overheard.. BUT IS THEY TALK TOO LOUD MAH) two juniors saying some stuff..

Okay because there'll be this interview section with everybody and we have to talk + play some music. Then they were saying if they wanna get in, they should use Guzheng. It's like saying if they use GZ, they're gonna get in FOR SURE. I was thinking "Walao another two learning GZ." It's really COMMON AND COMMON AND COMMON UNTIL LIKE DON'T KNOW WHAT. It's really like going into the street anyhow pull one person out and the person tells you that he/she learns piano/guitar.

WHY ARE THEY GETTING MORE AND MORE COMMON. Piano, guitar, violin, drum sets, saxophone. For Chinese music, people learn Guzheng, ErHu, Ruan. IT'S REALLY SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO COMMON. One day I should go learn harp or trumpet.

And now I am super sian..... Super super sian......

Today was fun though. BECAUSE I KNOW HOW TO PLAY. And Guzheng got solo in JuHuaTai. THREE BARS! THREE BARS EH! :'( Although Pipa also have soloSSSSS but the cool-ness is not the same. T-T JayChou made GZ as the accompaniment for the song what. T-T If I remember correctly, (must ask Jaslyn to confirm) we played JuHuaTai for Price Giving + Speech Day when I was P5. And it was awkward because I was crying as I play.

Speaking of that time.. I SO DUMB OH YEA. Okay I was nowhere to be seen during the last rehearsal yea, I was hugging some seniors SOMEWHERE, I forgot where. When I realised I was late, I ran up the stairs leading to backstage. And saw SOMEONE telling the teacher about me. Then the teacher saw me and he was damn relieved. He told me,"No matter what happens, you're a performer right now. Wipe off your tears and do your best."

That's really really very touching so I told cha I cried while I play. And the worse thing was, my teacher made me play the group 2 melody when the 3 awesome girls(Jaslyn, ZhiJia and XiWen) beside me were all playing group 1 melody. So I also don't know if I played wrongly or what.. Umm yea. I cried the most that year, I think. I didn't cry that much when I was graduating.

Those were all 陈年旧事, let's not mention it anymore. Like people said: Learning GZ is your PAST, don't bring it up anymore. You love it, keep it in your heart. Now I understand why I NEVER see Mengyuan touch the GZ in CO room before, and why I don't see my Jocie senior mention a word of it. Because now, Pipa is my 本分. No matter how lousy you are, you have to accept it.

So now I'm sad.. Hais I just hate it hate it hate it when I think of their faces when they wanted to show off how pro they are to me. They're trying to 刺激 me or what? But... THE THING IS OUT OF TUNE and you're...... showing off? :)

OKAY. NOW RECOMMENDING THIS GIRL. I subscribed to her already. ^^ She's damn pro at those KPOP dances. KPOP dances are influenced by hip-hop so you need... ENERGY and flexibility at times. (It is a 团体 right? Energy.)

Okay. I'm working hard for my theatre studies. Hwaiting! :D