Everybody is talking about this show, The Apple of My Eye. The female lead is very cute I love her unique smile. Bankrupt recently so I dont think I can go watch it by this December. Let's wait till the DVD is out or Funshion is able to kope it from somewhere..

I think I did a lot bad stuff this year. Okay I sort of "created a gap" with someone's friendship with the other person because he did something bad TO ME and I took revenge. I was really very unhappy about what he did yea.. But the gap wasn't really CREATED because he did say something unpleasant about his friend. And I was sooooo mean that I.. SIGH. Is it really my fault? :(

Well there's another mistake that I made this year.. I made someone really sad, when I made him so happy just a few days ago before I made him sad. Okay confusing right I DON'T CARE I LAZY EXPLAIN. I was afraid that.. I will never fight with my best friend for A GUY. I don't know la, I just don't like it. I'm sorry, but I can do nothing about the situation.. I cannot tell that person all this shit right.

Sometimes you regret about the decisions you've made, but you can't do anything to revive the memories. Then... too bad.

Life has to move on, we have to move on. People say that there'll be better things in future if you let go of the past. But people still live in their memories some times, whenever they are alone or at night. Sometimes I will look out of the windows of my room, (because there's a highway somewhere near so the houses opposite my block is really far away) and I will look at the buildings outside. AND because I live at a higher storey, I can see quite far.

When I can't sleep at night, I will just get up and stare outside. It's really nice, especially when you see the blinking lights of planes moving in the dark sky, it reminds me of China. I miss China soooo much. Sigh.

Last last year, I went back for a week. The night before returning to Spore, I was at my grandma's house. I remember my grandpa holding back his tears and he didn't wanna come down to see us off. While my grandma, holding on to my mummy's hands asking her to take care and stuff. And my cousin-in-law cried which made everybody cry. My mum was crying, grandma was crying, cousin was crying, me too. And the crying didn't stop till I almost reached my house after 1 hour.

I cried in the plane for half an hour I think.. And I hate that feeling seriously. If I go back again, will the same thing happen? :( I don't want it's really very annoying feeling. And I took a whole week to adapt to Spore OMG horrible. After I went VS for a day I took some time to adapt to AHS can you imagine..

Ok bye now.