Bought GongCha Green Milk Tea hahahaha suggested by that Dumb Gold.

This morning I walked up the great wall and realised its closed. At that moment I was damn irritated I tell ya. I walked ALL THE WAY up there, nope I think I RAN ALL THE WAY UP, just to find that it's locked and I needed to take the long route. Then something happened ah bla bla bla.. as I walked, I felt really aiya I don't know. My mum's problem had added on to the frustration. She was like this all the time, you know when it comes to money issue she just.. We just gotten some angbao $$$. And she just wanted me to pay for EVERYTHING, ring file, CO FUND, highlighters, pen refills, EVEN MY SPECTACLES.

Seriously la, where got $50 frame one!? (By the way, my specs shop is in Bugis and when I reached there at around 6.30pm, 8 promoters were all busy with work. While those quite common specs shop that you can find in Tamp, or any shopping centre, were really empty. Really no customer eh!) Ok back to the topic. YEA! She told me to pay for the specs and it's $200.. The person gave me 30% because I was a 忠实顾客(I bought 3 specs there eh.) so originally it was how much.. err I calculated it's $286 OMG. My dad just bought a pair of specs there for $400 and he said it's cheap for an adult's specs because adults... They always want designer brand. And my dad wanted transition lenses thats why.. And I'm growing up too, its the lenses that were expensive, no that I purposely chose expensive stuff..

I realised I'm saving for NOTHING. All I did was to save and save, but the problem was, WHAT DO I SAVE TO BUY??!

Eh seriously I don't know. Prom dress? O.o Mum said she will help me settle that when it's time. Bags? No need, I have bags.. I forgot! I think I wanted to buy something so I started saving but now I forgot!

I keep forgetting stuff recently. I can remember people's faces but not their names. Wanted to take something from kitchen but forgot, so walked back into the room, SUDDENLY REMEMBERED, walked out and saw something else and brought it with me to the room, then realised I didn't need it..

Oh. And my neighbour damn idiot. Wahlao I shouldn't have helped them sweep the flower pot and soil man. I saw their plant on the floor and the pot was shattered. I picked up the plant and took a broom to sweep. So nice right. Then the mum and the 2 children came back, and they just stood there. I looked up and told them it's shattered. The mum took the broom away from me and said ok thanks. I walked back to my door and was finding my keys outside the gate. I heard the mum said:"No, wind can never blow a plant to the ground. Cannot be the wind." The kids were looking at me. You think I'm soooooo 吃饱没事做 go throw your damn pot? I have so many pots too, NICER THAN YOURS SOME MORE, why don't I throw mine but yours?! 好心没好报.

I am going off topic.

Back back back!! I think CO sucks now. Don't have any motivation to stay there longer. I love the music, duh I've been learning it since 8, just some people there..

This morning I was really on the verge of crying. The tears were so close to falling. I saw many people walking into the tower hall and their faces.. OK FINE. I really really really almost turned back and GO HOME. Then I saw DumbGold who was smiling and waving. Instantly I changed my mind. When I reached CO room, I saw my 4th week junior(seen her for the 4th week) Valerie smiling at me. Her smile was complicated. She was like asking me if I was fine, at the same time telling me to cheer up. Her smile is this unique! I stared at her for a while and gave her a smile too. The motivation that made me stay was really friends and the performance.

To someone:
Don't say I've changed. I don't care. Can you confidently tell me that you didn't change? Your change was unpredictable. Your change was overnight. You were the one who put our friendship to an end. Stop finding/picking the flaws in me. One more year, no, just a few more months.. And you don't need to see my disturbing face again. I cried whenever I thought of what happened that caused the not-supposed-to-happen change in you. Did you ever feel sad? You just find me an eye sore right?

End. Gonna practise Guzheng. And you know what, Guzheng only get 3 bars of solo in the whole song. No wonder nobody wants to play it. Imagine primary school my conductor sees Guzheng as the centre of attention in CO.. Now? Corner of attention...