Brain is in a mess.. Went out yesterday and today, to Orchard and Bugis. Something happened and urgh I don't know.. I don't know what is it like if that is real you know. I don't wanna live in a family like that.. No! No! It will never happen! I wish that bitch knows that she has a husband and keep her bitchy actions to herself. I'm not making everything sound obvious, right? I'm very very scared, if one day this really happen, and I will have to cry every time I think of this and it will make a gigantic change in my life that may drive me insane. I'm not exaggerating.. O level year ok, please please don't do this. Had a nightmare last night and it feels real. I wanna go to China right now, maybe alone. I just want some quiet time and free from all these troubles.. It's enough! I'm praying really hard that the bitch is not really doing it. Or else... Both me and my brother won't let her off. I'm not sure what we will do, if we are really angry. To you both. I'm really scared to see you two fight. I would always cry and don't know what to do... Please please stop quarrelling. Give me some peace to study... I'm really running out of time...)':

Whenever I'm angry I can't hide it. I just keep crying but the anger won't go off. To the damn fking bitch: You fking bitch stay away from my family I tell you. So old still dye your damn fking hair BLONDE. Look at your fking face in the mirror. Just look! Old bitch wear hot pink dress with shiny silver belt? Use your damn eyeballs to look! If you fking bitch ever become the reason that something BAD happens to my family, you pay for it. I swear I will kill you bitch. Wah bitch isn't the word to describe you this kind of woman. In Chinese you're just 下贱. I'm still tolerating. I will tolerate it, for now. If you fking woman who is so bitchy, continues to be bitchy, you watch out. I will go look for you, scream at your face, and slap you. Don't say I'm scared, I'm just waiting for a chance.