Ok.. Had been studying for SS and doing the YuYing paper. Hahahaha.
Hmm.. Had fun during English today. Well, we basically slacked the 2 periods away, talking about childhood and speaking in weird accent about Christopher Columbus.

Dumb Gold and HooYoo both had good pals running around the neighbourhood with them when they were young. So nice. (:

I have a very complicated family, I mean relatives.. Complicated not in the BAD way, as in the relationships.. Yea you know. This aunt, that daughter, a huge family at my mom's side. So I have a lot cousins. When my mom's away in Singapore, I always go to my Wai-Po house to find them.

As my dad was the younger one. of the TWO children in his family, he's like the 宝贝儿子, plus he's a guy. So after my mum married him, she came to live with my Gong-Gong and Po-Po (dad's side).

My Wai-Po has 7 children, so compared to my dad's family, yea they're poorer. And my dad lived in the so called "town" area in the region.. By the way, one of my mom's sister married my dad's cousin... Which made the relationship complicated again.

Ok leave that aside!! That's why every time my family's visit to my Wai-Po's house will be like those VIPS.. Before my bro's birth, I was the youngest, that made my cousins gave in to me more.

Miss them...  ):

Saw their photos taken at the beach, so happy. Thinking back, I would follow them whenever they go to places like that. Now everyone has grown up, they lived near but also didn't visit one another often. Maybe during the holidays...

The most handsome, yet oldest cousin was married in 2010, we used to have a promise that we would attend one another's weddings when we grow up.. I was still studying that time, around Nov. Only my mom attended it. It was very grand, 20 wedding cars went to pick up my cousin-in-law that day. Everyone were there(the cousins), except me.

I tried talking to my 表姐 a few months ago, and she was a bit cold. towards me.. Like a total stranger. 2 of the guy cousins talked to me when they were free until last year, when one of them started working and the other started uni. ): The handsome married one was the worst... His wife has something against me I think.

Sigh. Feel so sad now... Everytime I look at that photo, I ask: Where am I? Why am I here?

So sad now. Nights...):

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I realised something.. I think it's hard for me to like someone right now. That's a problem?

Of course not, just feel ummmm... Don't know eh. I always had crush on people, like P6, sec 1, sec 2. Since the beginning of sec 3 I think, I felt that "crushing on someone" was rather impossible. As for the sexy person(yea that hot guy), it's... I just find him good looking but no feeling.

Yupp. Tsk. I don't know. I don't walk on streets looking out for handsome guys anymore..(Instead I look for chio bu hahaha) Chio bu is because I wanna see what bag they use, their style of clothing.

I actually forced myself to forget someone I met last year. I took 3 months to totally erase him from my life, and assuming he didn't exist. (I can't deny I still look out for him on the streets now?) It was hard. Yea, very hard. Especially when you know he's also very good to you.

Thinking back, how I endure those months... It was hard.

 As for now, due to someone constantly repeating her disappointments in her husband, I am slowly losing faith in guys. I am even wondering if I can find a boyfriend in future. Or should I say: Will this word 'boyfriend' exist in my life? Hahahaha. So funny right.

I'm not worried at all. Mom talked to me about 'marriage' during dinner which inspired me to write this post. I almost answered her: I will not get married.

This thought has been with me for very long...hmm. (: Physics test. Good luck!